New York - August, 2014

As a graduation gift, my sister and brother (technically my brother-in-law, but who's counting?) flew me out to Washington D.C. to visit them. While there, Jeannette and I took a day-trip to New York City and had a wonderful time. I was able to experience many different things such as have dinner at Guy's American Kitchen and Bar, have dessert at Cake Boss Cafe, and walk all around Times Square and Central Park. I also had the opportunity to go to The Top of the Rock where I was able to see a lot of New York City and, from a distance, see the Statue of Liberty. The first picture below was taken from the Top of the Rock and has the Empire State Building in the background. I must say that, although it was fun to visit New York, I could not live there. I am excited for future trips to the Big Apple so that I will be able to see more and to experience other things as well.

Spring 2014 Photos First Set

The weather today was phenomenal! It is beginning to warm up here in the Springs area and that means that everything is getting green and blooming. The lighting was so beautiful this evening that I knew I just had to get out with my camera and take some shots. I was able to get a few excellent ones along with a walk covering a distance of roughly two miles.

All photos were taken at the Golden Eagle Ranch and Campground in Colorado Springs, Colorado.

Falling (Poem)

Falling

Falling.

Falling.

Falling.

That is all that I am doing now.

I see above me a light that burns my flesh when it touches me,

And the pain inside begins to growl.

A dark, glassy lake lay there beneath me,

Yet, it dare not draw nigh.

As I fall further into the abyss,

The voices speak to me more and more.

Each one is so crisp and clear,

That as each wave nears my ear,

My throat is closing,

And, thus, I doth begin choking.

Choking not on water,

Nor choking on the air.

I am drowning in my own hot, red blood,

And feel as if evil is holding me in his loathsome stare.

I continue falling,

But not in any direction.

My heart is being grasped,

Not by mere mortal hands,

But by this deep, dark, lonely depression.

The blade of relief is there in the hand,

It’s shining, yet dull, edge glows red with obsession.

As the lashes appear on my wrist,

The tears begin to fall.

The pain is no more,

But the memories make be bawl.

I was told I was a diamond,

And to shine bright like a star.

This I cannot believe,

For my whole being has been crushed.

My heart has been pressed, and prodded, and tried.

Not until this moment,

Has my heart been turned to dust.

My love for thee is broken,

And, no more, in you can I trust.

I finally hit the bottom,

And the waters of the lake surround me.

All is still and silent,

And I drift into sleep.

Then I finally hear it,

It rang out ever so sweetly.

A heavenly voice did call to me,

As my soul sunk downward,

Unto the bottom of the black sea.

All of Me (Poem)

All of Me

With all that I am

With all that I feel

Everything that I gave to you

Was far too real

I miss your sweet touch

I long for the kiss of your lips

The sound of your voice

Oh, how sweet it is

The look in your eyes

The gentle wave of your hair

The sound of your name

How it makes my heart stir

The way that you would hold me

Your arms wrapping around so tight

Through the thick and thin

It would make me feel so right

How I wish that I could go back in time

I would stop it all from happening

Our hearts would be spared

And I wouldn’t feel like I’m dying

I sit here writing and I hear your voice in my head

It sounds so perfect and clear

I want it to stop

So I cover my ears

It doesn’t help one bit

I knew that it wouldn’t

I want to hug you

But force myself: I just couldn’t

I thought that our love was special

That it would always last

People said you wouldn’t change

And I was sorry that I asked

There was so much that I wanted to do

So much that I wanted to see

I know it will never happen

And OH, how that saddens me

I lay down at night and let the world fall away

For the last time I think of your name

I close my eyes in sleep

Then my breath is gone but my heart still feels the same

You'll make it through!

Every bad situation will have something positive in the end. Even dead clocks show the correct time twice a day. Always remember that even through the darkness and good times, you'll make it through. Make the world think you've got it all even if you're still missing that one thing or person. When you're feeling down, imagine looking up into the night sky right after looking at your phone or a bright light. Everything is dark for a moment and then slowly you see the stars shining. Just wait for it to pass so that you can see the beauty. No matter how hard the situation is, push through. You darling, yes you, will make it through. Somebody out there loves you and I am most likely one of those people!

Raindrops on the Windshield (Poem)

Raindrops on the Windshield

I can’t stop thinking about you.

I’ve tried and I’ve tried but to no avail.

I felt the sting and I know the pain.

I want to have you back.                                                                        

I need you in my arms once again.

Your touch is like silk

Your voice is made of honey.

I hate the emptiness that I feel inside.

The pain.

The anguish.

The need that I feel inside.

I lie awake at night in my bed thinking of you.

I cry in my sleep for I dream of you.

I hear your voice and my heart skips a beat.

I look to find you and realize that my heart is playing tricks on me.

You and I were flying high in the sky,

Nothing but open space ahead.

Now as I’m thinking

The tears are falling from my eyes.

The sound of my tears are drowned out by the rain outside.

As I drive on,

I stare into the darkness ahead.

The road seems never ending;

The wheels just keep spinning.

I see a flash of sparks

And feel a sudden stop.

I look around but all I see is black.

There is nobody around but yet, I still cry out.

The loneliness I feel in my heart grows and grows.

I want someone to be there with me through my sorrow

But nobody is around.

I cry out for love but my voice is quiet;

Quiet like the sound of raindrops on the windshield.

What To Do...

What To Do…

I don’t know what to do…

You said you were my friend.

We were closer than ever and that’s when that other person came into your life.

We never talk anymore…

What happened to us?

Where has our relationship gone?

Why does it always end this way?

I miss the sound of your voice,

The look in your eyes,

Your smile that lights up the night.

Basically, I just miss you.

I wish we could go back in time,

To the way things were before.

I dream of you every night

And wake up with a tear soaked pillow.

I should have known not to trust you like that,

But God knows that I want to,

I thought it was going to be different for us;

That nothing could tear us apart.

Why does it have to be so hard

To hear where the heart wants to go.

I’m lost in this darkness that used to be filled with light from your love.

I trip in the holes that were caused from my mistake.

Suddenly I’m falling;

Falling into the sea.

I hear the water splash.

I feel the cold surround me.

My lungs are filled with water

As I gasp for the air.

I reach out for a hand to grab

But nothing is within grasp.

I see a light above me and can sense your presence there.

I call out your name in hopes that you’d hear.

I reach out my hand praying that you’d see.

You’re walking away from me

And I fall to my knees.

I land on shards of glass that pierce through my skin.

The pain should be unbearable but I don’t feel a thing.

The only thing that hurts,

Is what you left behind:

The gaping wounds that will only heal with a very long time.

I look up through my tears and wish you’d turn around.

Despite what I want to,

What do I do?

I sit there and weep,

Wishing I was with you.