All of Me (Poem)

All of Me

With all that I am

With all that I feel

Everything that I gave to you

Was far too real

I miss your sweet touch

I long for the kiss of your lips

The sound of your voice

Oh, how sweet it is

The look in your eyes

The gentle wave of your hair

The sound of your name

How it makes my heart stir

The way that you would hold me

Your arms wrapping around so tight

Through the thick and thin

It would make me feel so right

How I wish that I could go back in time

I would stop it all from happening

Our hearts would be spared

And I wouldn’t feel like I’m dying

I sit here writing and I hear your voice in my head

It sounds so perfect and clear

I want it to stop

So I cover my ears

It doesn’t help one bit

I knew that it wouldn’t

I want to hug you

But force myself: I just couldn’t

I thought that our love was special

That it would always last

People said you wouldn’t change

And I was sorry that I asked

There was so much that I wanted to do

So much that I wanted to see

I know it will never happen

And OH, how that saddens me

I lay down at night and let the world fall away

For the last time I think of your name

I close my eyes in sleep

Then my breath is gone but my heart still feels the same

You'll make it through!

Every bad situation will have something positive in the end. Even dead clocks show the correct time twice a day. Always remember that even through the darkness and good times, you'll make it through. Make the world think you've got it all even if you're still missing that one thing or person. When you're feeling down, imagine looking up into the night sky right after looking at your phone or a bright light. Everything is dark for a moment and then slowly you see the stars shining. Just wait for it to pass so that you can see the beauty. No matter how hard the situation is, push through. You darling, yes you, will make it through. Somebody out there loves you and I am most likely one of those people!

Raindrops on the Windshield (Poem)

Raindrops on the Windshield

I can’t stop thinking about you.

I’ve tried and I’ve tried but to no avail.

I felt the sting and I know the pain.

I want to have you back.                                                                        

I need you in my arms once again.

Your touch is like silk

Your voice is made of honey.

I hate the emptiness that I feel inside.

The pain.

The anguish.

The need that I feel inside.

I lie awake at night in my bed thinking of you.

I cry in my sleep for I dream of you.

I hear your voice and my heart skips a beat.

I look to find you and realize that my heart is playing tricks on me.

You and I were flying high in the sky,

Nothing but open space ahead.

Now as I’m thinking

The tears are falling from my eyes.

The sound of my tears are drowned out by the rain outside.

As I drive on,

I stare into the darkness ahead.

The road seems never ending;

The wheels just keep spinning.

I see a flash of sparks

And feel a sudden stop.

I look around but all I see is black.

There is nobody around but yet, I still cry out.

The loneliness I feel in my heart grows and grows.

I want someone to be there with me through my sorrow

But nobody is around.

I cry out for love but my voice is quiet;

Quiet like the sound of raindrops on the windshield.

What To Do...

What To Do…

I don’t know what to do…

You said you were my friend.

We were closer than ever and that’s when that other person came into your life.

We never talk anymore…

What happened to us?

Where has our relationship gone?

Why does it always end this way?

I miss the sound of your voice,

The look in your eyes,

Your smile that lights up the night.

Basically, I just miss you.

I wish we could go back in time,

To the way things were before.

I dream of you every night

And wake up with a tear soaked pillow.

I should have known not to trust you like that,

But God knows that I want to,

I thought it was going to be different for us;

That nothing could tear us apart.

Why does it have to be so hard

To hear where the heart wants to go.

I’m lost in this darkness that used to be filled with light from your love.

I trip in the holes that were caused from my mistake.

Suddenly I’m falling;

Falling into the sea.

I hear the water splash.

I feel the cold surround me.

My lungs are filled with water

As I gasp for the air.

I reach out for a hand to grab

But nothing is within grasp.

I see a light above me and can sense your presence there.

I call out your name in hopes that you’d hear.

I reach out my hand praying that you’d see.

You’re walking away from me

And I fall to my knees.

I land on shards of glass that pierce through my skin.

The pain should be unbearable but I don’t feel a thing.

The only thing that hurts,

Is what you left behind:

The gaping wounds that will only heal with a very long time.

I look up through my tears and wish you’d turn around.

Despite what I want to,

What do I do?

I sit there and weep,

Wishing I was with you.

Charette Lakes

Today, I went to Charette Lakes here in New Mexico with my cousin. While we were there, I went ahead and took these photos. These are all just random shots that just happened to turn out to be photographs and not just snapshots. Enjoy!

(Yes, the rocks are under water. This photo shows just how clear the water really was.)

We Will Defy Gravity

We Will Defy Gravity

When I’m with you,

I can do anything.

We become one

And nothing can tear us apart.

My heart soars in your arms;

It flies high in the sky.

When I am with you,

I feel like I’m in heaven.

We float on the clouds

And play in the open space.

People say we can’t be together.

I say let’s defy gravity!

My heart is yours,

My love is real.

When they say we can’t be together,

We will say, “Yes, we can!”

We will thus defy gravity.

We’ll float above the solid ground,

The world cannot pull us down.

We look across the ocean of people,

And see a great expanse.

Nothing but a rolling ocean of doubt,

A game that everybody will lose.

They start popping up,

Each of them,

One by one.

That is when we realize,

No matter what anybody said,

We defied gravity!

The others saw us fly.

They wanted to do the same.

They decided to tell the doubt and the worry and the pain

“Get lost,” and to “Go take a hike!”

We banded together over the masses.

We united as one body.

One who will fight for freedom.

The ones that had doubt saw that we can defy gravity.

They tried to reach us but failed.

We had a bond that could not be severed for, together,

You and I,

We will defy gravity!

Who Do You Think You Are

To the love of my life:    

            Who do you think you are to treat me this way? I loved you with all of my heart and gave you everything. Other than breaking my heart, what did you accomplish? Was it really worth it for you to do that and to lose the one person that really loved you for who you are? I’m sorry for all that I said. I wish that I could take it all back and erase the past. I can’t stand to live with this regret while wondering what it would be like if we never said those things to each other. Are you happy now that you are free of me and that you don’t have to worry about my feelings? I miss you and wish that we were still together and that this had never happened. Why does love have to be so cruel? I feel as if my heart was ripped out of my chest and stabbed repeatedly. I have just one more thing to say to you: I will ALWAYS love you!

With all that I have,

The Heartbroken